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Published August 1996
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for David, after sixty
Aiming to make movement unobtrusive we brush the mosquitoes from our ankles, not checking if they’ve gone, since they’ll be back. Our casual informed chatter buzzes with place and time, aimlessly drawing blood. Vulnerable in skimpy summer clothing we hop from foot to foot, sipping your wine, as if wine or hopping ever stopped a sting. Your inner-city courtyard is sculpted from sleepers, pots, potting-mix and creepers. Next door a warehouse choir is rehearsing its Christmas Messiah. The perfect host, shepherding, you say we better come in. Only then do we notice the moonflowers growing from your patch of bad city soil. There were moonflowers in Queensland, you explain, never this far south until you grew them yourself, smooth white circles that bear the moon as in a mirror, perfumed, in whiteface, shaking like moths, yet more secretive . . .a floral version of that slow loris who came from Malayan rainforest to live with us in Oxford, drunk at nights on grapes and Scotch, climbing our curtains in slow motion, on heat, darting for a moth whose wing flapped between her prim lips. . . Your moonflowers scale three-storey walls as fast as kids racing up the drainpipe to break and enter, leaving you your poems. Moonflowers caress the sky or, like Jack up his beanstalk, entangle with giants. Immobilised like satellite dishes they reflect outer worlds to inner, reaching ecstasy in what they pick up. Inside meantime, past sixty, you hold forth, tossing pasta and greens, searing the fish, uncorking wine, adjusting the lights, sentence by sentence giving shape and grace, enthusiasm, optimism, critique— all the while you are out there in the dark, velvety white and shining, still no scars, receptive, shuddering, opening wide. The literary world prefers its daytime rose, sweet and thorny, seasonal, blown. You open only at night, on the ledge, stepping from your continent’s shelf like Houdini on a tightrope, flesh tensed, gazing in all directions at once like Titian’s triple portrait beasts, or your own words, pointing and warning. In the morning you’ll furl your parasol of flimsy paper away from the world’s bright eyes, rampant order of moonflower so flourishing here under your fingertips that nowhere else could dream such radiance.
Nicholas Jose’s fiction and essays appear in HEAT Series 1 and 2.
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